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A moment (for time is short) by Darth B'strad
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Bieren’s Morning Poetry Series #23 by Bieren Skidels
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A regret (where the freedom lies) by Darth B'strad
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Don’t vote, Do something! by Darth B'strad
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A request (Awaken from the American dream) by Darth B'strad
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A Justification (He did worse to me so you should be grateful) by Darth B'strad
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This one is for Pam (love is watching someone die) by Darth B'strad
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A Healing (Come on in and I’ll give you shelter from the storm) by Darth B'strad
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the womb by invot
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A gash (this too shall pass) by Darth B'strad
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A moment (for time is short)

Posted on March 8th, 2010 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Poetry.

Another day
another week
they move on through the years.
another good day–
followed up by a bad one,
such is life.
Another moment–
of complete clarity, understanding–
and yet another moment
of complete confusion, insecurity.
Another test of your will power,
another pain you have to cope with–
this is how life goes.
Another dream that fills your life with hope,
another one fades that leaves you hopeless–
the world keeps turning.
Another time of peace–
yet still another time of war.
A time for forgiving
and a time for scattering
our lives are full of these events.
But why do we keep fighting things
that we just can’t control?

For here in the moment is all we have
you can either live it up the best you can–
with what you have been given,
or you can fold– and see if there are better
things along the horizon–
but thous that always fold
never win the pot.
But these card that I have–
I will never fold on!
They always win!
The joys that come from
loving and serving the people that know
and care for you best.
What other card that my come my way–
come and go
but these cards are everlasting.
So play the cards you get
the best that you can.
Don’t cheat on the rules–
or the rest of us will throw you out.
For these moments
are all that you get.

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Bieren’s Morning Poetry Series #23

Posted on February 24th, 2010 by Bieren Skidels.
Categories: Poetry, Comedy, Parental Advisory.

“Coffee”

my coffee may taste like shit, but
when it’s gone
I still miss it

a life is not corroborated
unless
it’s companionated

eggs and bacon are more than just neighbors
they’re collaborators

and in the mouth of nazis
it’s still breakfast

truckers in a diner at 3am
all wait for the same drunk waitress
all order the same special dish
and all drink the same
dank
coffee

but I don’t have any coffee

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A regret (where the freedom lies)

Posted on February 22nd, 2010 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Poetry.

I was a man in love with regret
I was a man in love with pain
I was a man in love with my own torment–
such waste in all that loss.
I kept crying over a death of a dream,
that I couldn’t even remember.
I kept scratching at the torn flesh
just so that I could keep feeling it–
so that I could keep enjoying it’s– pain.
I looked to dig wells where I knew there was no water
and kept busy with things I could not change–
beating my head against the ground so that
everyone could see the bruises and then,
pretend that they weren’t there at all.
I scoffed at thous that would help me
and placed blame on things that were not to be blamed.
For that is the system that I grew up in–
a culture of victims.
But yet– I didn’t listen to my own better judgment,
I knew what I was doing was wrong but I did it anyway
because I did like it–
it was comforting
but it held no value–
no worth, fake.
I was making my own nightmare!
Just so that I could see it all come true–
and say “see I told you so!”
But I wasn’t fooling anyone
and I most certainly wasn’t fooling Him.

He is the man that brought me out of this!
He takes much from me–
my place, my sin, my life
all of it goes to Him.
He bought it all with a real hefty fee–
far beyond what any of us could imagine.
For how does a King truly decide to give up all
heaven and earth– for me.
Only a God could make a choice like that!
Had I not chosen to trust Him,
I most certainly would have been where I was–
for He made my life more miserable–
but you certainly couldn’t imagine the joy that I have!!!
You could not predict the things that I’ll do next–
for I don’t know what I’m doing next!
But I know exactly where I’m going
and I have a fixed star in sight!
So stack your building if you wish!
and watch them crumble yet again!
It’s all the same old story on a different day
but yet no one knows what will happen.
So let them sing their love songs again!
Let us enjoy the life we have!
Let us seek out our fixed star–
the one He has set to guide us.
For nothing in this world matters!
And yet He is the redeemer–
and all that is matters to Him.
And if you still are confused–
don’t ask me, ’cause I don’t know!

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Don’t vote, Do something!

Posted on February 18th, 2010 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Political, War, Law, Orig. Literature, Philosophy, Media, Economics, Local, Cultural.

So how about I say a little about myself before everyone around here gets the wrong impression of me. I was one of your average run of the mill conservatives supporting the usual conservative view of the world and I still do hold true to most if not all of the typical conservative way of thinking. And that’s an easy thing for everyone around here to confirm, all you have to do is take a good look at my posts here about two years back and you’ll easily see that I had all of the talking points set and was committed all the way to the conservative cause. I’ve even been accused by Bieren of being the poster boy of conservatism and I was honored to receive that supposed cut down by Bieren (I still don’t consider that to be a cut down). I used to listen to talk radio at least 8 hours a day to the greats like Rush Limbaugh, Hugh Hewitt and Dennis Prager. And just like all of them, I still do think that Obama is just about the worst president we have elected in quite some time even though I do like the guy, I just never thought he was right for the job and with how the events have unfolded recently, looks like I was very much right about that. Along with all of the rest of the good conservatives, I fought hard to get McCain elected even though none of us wanted the guy but that we thought he would just be slightly better than Obama, and he did make us all happy with nominating Sarah Palin and calming our fears that we would just get pushed to the side once the election was done. But we didn’t win that one, and now I do find as least for myself that it was a good thing that McCain didn’t win. Not because I enjoy seeing this country going to shambles whenever I briefly have a look at the news but that I did get the chance to completely rethink the whole idea of the conservative movement and for that matter I started to find a problem with our entire political system as it is. The truth is: this system is completely unsustainable and impractical right from the time that we (as a country) started capitalizing on the industrial revolution. The unfortunate truth is that when we (as a country) started making capitalism the reason for why we exist then that’s when it started to no longer be one nation under God but rather one nation under the mighty dollar. As we keep on making the dollar and this entire system work for us, we keep finding ourselves enslaved to this system and even start finding ourselves enslaving other countries to it as well. Sooner or later something has to give, and the more and more our economical crisis continues, the more and more likely people around the world are going to be demanding more world government and more world economical integration. It’s not really a question of if this will be, it’s much more a question of when. The idea will keep looking and sounding reasonable on paper but if we start calculating the realities of human nature you’ll find that it’s just going to persist this problem. So may I suggest an alternative? How about an opt out plan?

The bureaucratic issue
We have a big issue going on in this country today! It’s just the fact that this country’s government is swollen with way too much bureaucracy that’s just sucking out all of the real freedom around here. In reality we are not much of a free country at all. We can elect a completely different group of people who say the exactly opposite thing but yet the same things just keep on happening. For example all of the people that really wanted us to stop all the wars and get out completely, they just do things the proper way and gather up support for Obama and push all the way to win the election! And Obama didn’t quite do as he promised by moving Iraq and instead did the same exact thing in Afghanistan that Bush did in Iraq! So may I ask what really is the difference here? They both say opposite things only to do the same actions. They both spend way too much money on things that don’t work and all these governmental programs just keep failing. So why exactly are we spending all of this money on things that don’t work? Why are we spending all of this money on a system that doesn’t do what it’s suppose to do?

Now it’s an easy argument for a conservative to say “well that’s because the liberals have abandoned the constitution and start making up their own law!” Now to an extent that is true because it was a liberal president named Franklin Delano Roosevelt who started a trend to nominate supreme court justices that would do as the president pleases rather than rule on what the constitution says. That sort of judicial ruling has showed up all over the country in situations like when California had used it’s supreme court to put same sex marriage in place despite the fact that the overwhelming majority of citizens in that state voted against same sex marriage. So ruling like that one have effectively made voter initiatives practically obsolete in this country. However, liberals would argue that it’s the big business in this country that’s tearing this country to shreds and that’s also true. With how financially irresponsible that most all of the larger corporations have been, it’s lead to the financial collapse that we see today. The large banks around this country liked making all of that money they were getting off of the bad loans they were handing out so much that they didn’t check to see what would happen if the housing bubble would pop. Thus, there were a lot of people left out in the cold when they couldn’t pay the loans they had. So there is plenty of blame to go around and most certainly lots of people around the country have been making sure they push that blame out there. All you need to do is turn on the news and you’ll see somebody (no matter who it is that’s on) blaming someone else for all of the problems of the country. This problem gets so absurd that certain people have made t-shirts saying “pray for Obama: Psalm 109:8.” Now that doesn’t sound so bad until you look up the verse and see “May his days be few; may another take his place of leadership.” Well that’s not very good sportsman like conduct there and I find anyone who would use the bible in such a manner utterly detestable. So Why do we have to put up with this failed system? But still we’re not a the root cause of what’s wrong here.

The Irony of it all
You can actually trace all of these problems back to the American Civil War and even further back to the founding of our nation. The question here is why exactly did that war start in the first place? Considering that every southern state left the union because of slavery, that does mean that we started off as a nation living in violation of one of our most core values: that all humans are created equal. In order to change this Violation, we required a Civil War so that we can remove the inequality from our nation, but have we really started to live as our principals say that we should? So that we could win the civil war Lincoln had suspended habeas corpus allowing him to detain confederate soldiers without trial so that things could operate more smoothly and allow for a victory. Lincoln had also spent money that was not approved by congress yet and kept pushing all to win the war and never held back. While I’m not wiring this to demonize Lincoln, what he did had corrected a great injustice in our society that should not have been allowed to exist in the first place but yet to correct that problem we ended up having to throw away most of our principals to win. This did create a sense of pragmatism that’s created a false mindset in this nation: that we will go to any length to achieve our objectives no matter the rules that we have. This is an American problem that both political parties adhere to and this is shown in every element of our society from the way that it spends it’s money to the way that we talk. Everything is geared to making America the bright shining city on the Hill without thinking of what’s truly the right thing to do. The political talk is always about what is best for America rather than what is the right thing to do. Just as Lincoln had done in the past, so too, every president had continued following his example up to the present day in some from by placing America before all other concerns. As a result, we have ended up wiping out most of the native Americans, we have imprisoned Japanese without cause, we detain people of middle eastern decent and we keep people from coming into our country when it is not to our benefit. We demonize groups of people when they don’t line up with our core values when we have a political difference or a cultural difference. We place that we are first, right in what we believe and anyone that sees it differently is then someone who needs to change their perspectives to our view for things to come out right. We decide that we must implant our culture into other societies, regardless of the cost to them, because we are the ones who live right. We place blame on others when things don’t go right when they are not the problem. The true problem is how we think. We are a country that holds to the ideas on individualism and we think that each of us individually can make it on our own without any help from the people around us, other countries or even God Himself. We say “yes we can” prove that we are the great thing in the world when this is not true. We are arrogant.

A deceleration of dependence
In our founding document, The declaration of independence, the defining words are “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.” At the time that was written, it was intended to convey to England that they do not have the right to take life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness away from us and that is a true statement. However, as we have aged as a nation, that statement has evolved even further to mean that our government must provide these things for us when our government can not provide. In order to provide life for our citizens then that means that we must go abroad and take life from others to ensure that we have it. In order to ensure liberty for our citizens then we have to take it from our own people so as to not trample on others rights. Finally, to create the possibility of the pursuit of happiness then we create a system that leaves many loop holes and allows for people to get caught up in and they never find what they were looking for. Most of the wars that we have fought were because other people were living in a way that we did not like rather than because we had to fight that war so that we would survive as a nation. The only two wars we have fought where we would not have continued existing as a nation if we had not won was the revolutionary war and world war two. With all of the wars that we keep on fighting, it only continues to keep fueling the hatred for our nation because we fight every war with the assumption that we are right that may or may not be the case. Thus, we continue taking life so that we can provide it for others. We enforce copy write laws to ensure that people to do not take someone’s work and use it for a profit when they themselves have taken that idea from someone else. There is nothing on this earth that is truly new and in reality, everything is just a recycled idea applied in a different way like having an internal combustion engine replace a horse or replacing a mud hut with wooden and steel houses. We stop certain people from releasing a song because they have certain words that are the same to another that may be right or may not be right. Or we take the house of another person so that we can build a highway to move people faster around the country. Thus, we take the liberty from others to ensure it for others. We have created the market economy so that the people that work the hardest are the ones that reap the most reward out of this nation but yet what it all comes down to is blind luck. Everyone in the housing market was making millions of dollars and was working really hard to get there only to find that we built too many houses and no longer needed so many thus causing them to loose out on what they worked so hard on. While at the same time a kid who has never worked a day in his or her life can just get all of the money their parents earned and just waste it away. At the end of it all, I keep finding that the most ambitious people in the world are also the most unhappy. So to ensure the pursuit of happiness usually ends up creating our own unhappiness. We don’t follow what we preach in this country!

Let us take a step back for a moment and realize certain truths of this world that we can not change. Life is not ensured because at any moment you can die in millions of different ways. So in reality, the very fact that you take another breath is actually a gift because you may not take another. Liberty is never ensured because anything that you want can become something that controls your actions and thus you end up enslaving yourself to your desires. To truly be independent of everything means that all of your actions must be devoid of all passion. Happiness is something that things can not provide for you but it is something that you have to choose to be on a daily basis despite what this life brings you. So the more and more that we keep on focusing in on how to fix problems that are part of a world that we can never change, the more that we will keep spending and fighting and working we keep on pushing ourselves into slavery. Every single person on this planet is a slave to something and your only choice is what you choose to be a slave to. So given all of this, what can we possibly do about our problem here? The only answer here is to take everything that we have in this world with gratitude and live the best that we can and allow forces that are greater than us to correct what is wrong in this world. We need to push aside our arrogance and admit that we don’t know everything and that we can’t correct everything in this world. We need to live a little simpler with our minds set on where we are truly headed all together as a whole. We need to realize that everything in this world is a gift and that we are only still living by grace that this world have not taken our lives yet. We need to stop thinking of what we are entitled to but rather what we can do to celibate the fact that we are still living. We need to declare that we are dependent on each other and need to keep focused on the people around us rather than focusing on things that we can not change. I propose that we change the way that we think.

Ask not what your country can do for you but what you can do despite your country
We are a country were most of the population clams to be Christan but yet the funny thing is we rarely act like Christians in this country. So it’s really quite funny to see every president tout their Christaness about when they never do things that are “Christan.” For one, Jesus was never concerned about popularity and in fact usually said things to purposefully drive people away when He would start to get popular. Also, He never cared much for government workings and in fact usually attracted hatred from government officials. However, for the purpose of this post I am not talking of evangelizing people, that is a subject that I have talked about and will spend a lifetime talking about but for now I’m focusing in on how we act and think. For example, our founding fathers had the Boston Tea Party where we destroyed the property of the British to make our point that we didn’t like the taxes England was placing on us. But on the other hand, England was paying for a costly war that we had benefited from and they had bills to pay. Now was it right for England to be placing all of the high cost on us and enforcing the control on us? No but we were also not right in destroying what was not ours. And we constantly keep doing this by butting our heads into conflicts that are not ours to deal with. So why didn’t we go about this another way? Why didn’t we work off the dept that we had accumulated for that war and then continued on living our lives as if the king of England didn’t matter to us? But we can’t change what happened in the past so we can’t possibly know what would have happened if we had followed that course. So let’s just fast forward 234 years to the present and ask the same question, why don’t we live as if the federal government doesn’t matter? Well then that means that we won’t be worried at all about who’s in office and might not even bother to vote at all. That doesn’t mean that we keep ourselves out of the loop and not know what’s happening but instead of worrying about the things that we can’t control, we keep focused on what we can control. We can’t control what Washington is going to do but we can control what we say and what we do. So if we live life with the principals that government is by about and for the people (even though it’s not) then that means we don’t have to stress ourselves over everything the government is doing. We can better focus on the people around us and our local communities if we’re not worried about government. We don’t have to waste our money on a system that’s completely broken and almost useless. We don’t have to keep fixed into the 9 to 5 work week and then go home and quickly lock the door to make sure the neighbors are thous scary terrorist that we keep hearing about. No, we can get to know our neighbors and actually find out for sure if they actually have bad intentions. We can turn off the TV and and just not care about all the useless hype that we have going around the country. We can instead look to helping out the people in our own back yard instead of relying on a system that doesn’t the people that it hands out checks to. May I suggest that we stop relying on the government.

Now don’t misunderstand me here– I am not suggesting that we start another revolution or march on Washington and demand changes. No, I really mean pretend that it doesn’t matter. Not that we decide to not pay our taxes or anything illegal like that but just that we live without the government in our heads every day. So in order for us to start moving us forward in a manner that allows for us to correct our local problems despite what the government is doing I have a few points to think over.

1. First things first– smash your TV! or at lest stop watching the political news and hyped up television that will have you constantly griped by by the culture. All of the constant reports are just things that will keep you worried over one thing that you can’t change to the next thing that you can’t change and so it’s just something that’s just going to keep draining you out. It’s wise to know what’s going on in the world but news papers and other such media formats are less intrusive and allows for deeper thought than TV news.

2. Find a community– Churches or your local temple of your religious believes are by far the best places to go for this or if you happen to be atheist or agnostic then I suggest you try one, it might just be a good experience for you. And pay close attention to the people there, find out what they are like and what they need and help out if you can. Don’t look at it like it’s a place for getting good and services like your local market but more like a second home with people that you can help and can help you. Let it enrich your life with cares that have nothing to do with the government.

3. Form a new identity– We all have been living in a culture of being Americans first that overrides everything else in this life and we need to break from that habit. We need to care more about the people around us and the world at large rather than our country or creed. America is not the most important thing in this world and someday it will fall just like all of the empires and countries in the past have also risen and fallen but the world keeps on going on despite that. So don’t let that trouble you! Instead, try loving the people around you just as you love yourself and place more value on being part of your community rather than a citizen of America and this also goes the same for all of you living in other countries as well.

4. Work with others– Start living a little simpler with what you have! Instead of rushing out to buy that nice car you always wanted, find one that meets your needs. Don’t rush out to buy the big nice house but find one that meets your needs. With the excess of money that you save here then you can pour it into your local community to help out with others helping build an establishment that you all can benefit from. It’s easy to tear down but it takes generations to build up places of shelter and comfort. As you work and commit to a place to build up, you start to leave good traditions in your children and the people around you.

5. Take joy in your life– None of us was given the choice to be born into this world and none of us has the choice on when it will end. So take hold of that! Live your life as if it were all as song of praise for all that you have been given. Yes, you will have pain in your life and yes you will be hurt and will hurt others, this is inevitable but your only other option is to end it prematurely. But that would be a horrible same for you to do such a thing! If you have people around you that love and care for you, then take hold of that for that’s more precocious then all of the finest gold in the world. Fame will fade in time and countries will eventually die out but the people that you encourage and love will turn around and bless others. That’s what changes societies!

None of what I suggest is going to be easy but if we are to move forward in this country then we are going to have to start learning how to straighten out our priorities. We have lost our way completely! We no longer do what is right in this country but rather what is more expedient and easy to do and that’s caught us in a terrible snare. Life will go on despite what this country does, so why should we let us control us? There’s so much more out there than this country has to offer.

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A request (Awaken from the American dream)

Posted on February 11th, 2010 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Poetry.

“Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown”
For just as tears fall
so too sorrow slowly builds over time.
The things that you let define you–
are the things that take you over
control how you act
control how you think
control how you feel!
They shape you and break you at the seams
but you’re too stubborn and you’ve–
grown accustomed to the tethers of your life.
Not allowing your mind to reach for the stars–
you keep moving along with no fixed star in sight.
Wandering, hoping, taking for grated,
building building with no foundations–
that crumble before your very eyes.
For you have created this dream that
turned into a nightmare.
You made you’re way despite what I have said–
despite what I have tried to teach you.
So sorrow keeps filling you up
and you don’t know what to do,
keep grasping at what little air you have–
that’s been manufactured and recycled
to have you thinking the way they want you to.

What is it that you’re seeking for?
What is it that’s most important to you?
For it’s quite clearly not me!
I am but another pawn in your system–
something that you’ve been using to get the certain
words that you wanted to hear–
but I’ve stopped cooperating with you
and I’ve been doing my best to forgive,
let these pain go!
For the sorrow will overtake you,
and break you of all your ambitions–
till you have nothing left
but just cold dead pain.
Wake up!
Leave this hopeless dream behind!
Let me wake up from this nightmare–
that keeps dripping sorrow into your heart.
Let me wake up of this American dream–
that’s flawed in it’s design and misleading
in it’s promises.
For it will never hold truth in what,
it preaches!
It will take you down a road were you will
not want to be.
It will mislead you
to a place were sorrow is all that you will find.
Look instead to things everlasting–
a city that endures were all is made new.

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A Justification (He did worse to me so you should be grateful)

Posted on January 31st, 2010 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Poetry.

You have been talking with two sides to your mouth,
and living double lives, lying to everyone–
and most assuredly, you have been lying to yourself.
You have made yourself into something boastful
and have been trying to correct your faults all on your own–
feels kinda lonely doesn’t it?
So just because that guy had done something worse to you–
does that really mean that you are then right in what you did to me?
Did you not see? Did you not hear–
that all sin leads to death?
So why should I feel grateful over what is wrong?
Shall I dismiss God’s standard so that you feel better?
But you have choosen to fight Him with every–
little bit of strength that you have left.
I tried to tell you– but you would not hear me!
And you have placed your confusion–
and instability on me.
For everyone who lives can not see reality to it’s full extent–
and only a fool clams that he knows it all.

You have hurt me, my friend,
you have spoke of me what was not true–
and blamed me for not doing as you have wished!
You have tried to twist my mind to suit your plans,
but you forget that every plan is just a tiny prayer to God,
and He will decided if such plans move or fail.
You must stop trying to justify yourself!
You must stop fighting with Him!
You must stop trying to manipulate to your will,
and you must start giving into His will!
For you will never find rest for you soul–
while you are feeding your own ego.
So you can hate me all that you will,
and keep calling me an asshole
but I will choose to forgive–
for that is the hard road that I have been called to.
Give up your high hopes for a real trust,
give up your ways for the true way.
And when you start forgiving,
you’ll know where to find me–
still right here– doing what I was always meant to do.

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This one is for Pam (love is watching someone die)

Posted on January 30th, 2010 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Poetry.

Pouring out tears as I sat and heard of my friend,
but they were only a sequel of many tears that have come before
and a prequel of the ones that are still to come.
With grief as you name, you have inflicted more pain
as you have taken everyone in the past,
so too, you will take everyone in the present.
And now you have taken my friend, dearly loved to us all
and with much scorn and envy, we curse your name!
You have taken your hold over us
and have made your way.
You have told us what you want from us–
but we will not accept you– I will not accept you!
For in your grasp is only destruction,
only pain, only emptiness–
but I seek the fullness of life!
So tell me, O death, where is your sting now!
For while you have it intact for now,
you will loose your hold on all who live–
and only the ones who love you will keep in your hold.
But just as the sun rises for another day–
so too, you will give up all that love life.

So where can you run to where He can not see?
Where can you hide where He does not know?
All of heaven and earth is His to command–
and your time is growing short, O death.
For He has been made alive again!
And He is worthy of all praise!
What can you, a pity creation of the damned,
make of us?
You have no power over us
and one day we will be justified in our faith.
We will cling to it as dearly as our loved ones,
and whenever you take, you will find your grasp–
slowly slipping away, one by one.
All of the pain that you have caused–
will be wiped away
and all the tears that you have shed,
will fade into non-existence.
You will become empty,
you will become worthless,
you will become nothing,
you will cease to exists!
O death, where is your sting now!

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A Healing (Come on in and I’ll give you shelter from the storm)

Posted on January 6th, 2010 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Poetry.

“Well I see you sanding there
with your head to the ground
wondering if all the toils in your life
have been worth it all.
I see you have a nasty gash on your head–
and you’re still trying to figure out
how it got there.
And I can see you’re the type–
that will just keep on going,
and keep on fighting hard
till you meet your end–
but now you’ve lost your stomach for it
and now you’ve lost your fight.
The road you see ahead
just seems to keep on going–
with no end in sight–
and no pit stops on the way
and you’re so weary and–
you’re finding it hard to take another step.
When all you see is dark gray clouds coming–
and you see yet another storm building,
don’t you just start feeling hopeless?
So you just keep on muttering about–
trying to keep things straight in your head
but it’s hard to see–
with all the blood running down your face.

Well here I am, son,
and I have just what you need.
I brought out the nice car–
just to take you home,
and you won’t have to worry anymore.
I’ll get that gash stitched up for you
and I have just the right ointment–
to heal that right up.
I’ll fix you up some mighty fine stew,
and then you’ll regain your strength
and start feeling hopeful.
Don’t worry about the clouds up in the sky
they’re just having a little visit and–
they’ll move on when I’m done with them.
So please! Just come on in–
and I’ll give you shelter from the storm.
And when you’re well rested up and ready,
I’ll get you right back to where you need to be.
You still have much left for you
but don’t worry–
I’m always here to take you home.”

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the womb

Posted on January 2nd, 2010 by invot.
Categories: Poetry, Creative Writing.

I’ve been driving through the deserts
searching for a life to call my own.
Where will I go
when this day is over?
Put another nickel
in the horizons machine.

it appears to me
to quote the highways
like a cloud slowly shrinking
there’s no use in going far

The miles roll back with some effort
searching for a place to call my home.
more was said
than I have spoken
by the graves of travelers
much more defeated than me.

it appears to me
to quote my bad days
like a silent movie screaming
I’ve bound my hands with apathy

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A gash (this too shall pass)

Posted on December 28th, 2009 by Darth B'strad.
Categories: Poetry.

They say that you shouldn’t cry over split milk–
and you should heed their words here,
for it is only a fool that cries over things that they didn’t need–
so shed not a single tear over them.
But yet, the death of a dream can be harsher–
than the loss of friend.
For while a person could always take the position of another–
nothing can fill the void in the mind.
Just as the gash springs forth blood
so too, the loss of a dream springs forth despair.
And just as the blood is evident for all to see–
so too, the despair is impossible to hide.
But now is a time to think fast!
Now is a time to keep from dieing!
For if much more is lost here– then life ceases to be possible.
Stumbling about, you grasp for the nearest cloth
only to start choking, and hold in your breath.
For a moment there, you soak it all in, all of the pain,
all of the misery, all of the loss, all of the reality.
For a moment there, you start to take pleasure in the pain,
and start contemplating if you should let all the blood run out.

Choking again! Then you put the pressure down, hold off the bleeding,
say alive, not even quite sure why, just getting it done.
And then the pain starts to subside, and a scab shuts off the flow–
allowing you to actually breath again, feel again, and realizing–
that healing is a far better joy than the pleasure at the pain.
Sure it was harder but now you can move again, walk again, see again.
But yet, now the analysis fires up, recreating the incident, processing–
making maps to the crash that occurred.
And then they bring out the line, not realizing what just happened–
this wasn’t just split milk, this was life threatening.
So then the talks come and much is learned
but yet, it still holds true, that I did nothing wrong here!
For as much as one might talk of what happened
what it really all came down to is– bad luck.
For there were unseen obstacles here–
purposefully placed in my way to mislead me,
where you got out lucky– that they weren’t there for you–
or at least this time.
But it is not a time for hate!
It is a time for healing!
It is not a time for war!
It is a time for forgiveness!
It is a time to move forward,
it is a time to let go of the things you didn’t need,
and accept what you have been graciously given.
For this too shall pass.

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