Why I chose to become a Christan

Posted on April 7th, 2007 by Darth B'strad.
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March 5, 1992, I chose to become a Christian. In one of those strange ironies of life that just so happened to be exactly four years later, to the day, that my older brother had also chose to become a Christian. We were both seven years old and we both had went to our father and asked him what it meant to be a Christian and how we could become one. We were not forced into those believes or even been scared into believing the things that we now believe in. On that day that I had accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior I did not really understand what I was getting myself into. That’s a day that I had completely forgotten about until recently but now I realize that that was the most important day of my life. Although I did not know for sure what exactly I was getting myself into that day and what the consequences of my choice that day however I can tell you now with absolute certainty that if I had not done what I did that day I would have killed myself a long time ago.
I remember back in middle school one day that we somehow got on to a discussion about suicide. To my great surprise I found out that just about all of classmates all thought about suicide and a few of them even planned it out before, all except me.I have had many days where I wished that I have never been born or wanted to die but I never let myself to even consider committing suicide. When I got into the conversation and had said that I never even considered suicide all of my classmates thought that I was crazy. After having time to reflect on this and to think it through clearly I think now I have the reason why there was such a big difference between me and my classmates, simply put it is my belief in God. Being that I was going to a secular school the majority of my classmates were atheists and I was one of the few Christians in the school (or maybe they just didn’t what to say, it really wasn’t too popular). Most of the time I was the outcast of my school and never really accepted there but there was one thing that I had that the rest of them did not have: Hope. Hope for something worthwhile after this life, hope for a purpose to everything that we go through in this life has some meaning to it all. To me is there is no God then there is no reason to suffering all the pains and sorrows in this life. Sure, you my find meaning in your work or family but eventually you die and your family dies and forgets you and the company you worked for eventually goes bankrupt. Countries rise and fall, things that were one name are renamed to something else and no matter what eventually all that you have worked hard for no longer exists, heck maybe the planet will blow up and then there is absolutely nothing left to show that we were here. If there is no life after this death then why suffer in this life? It sure would be much easier just to off yourself and get it over with because there is no point. That is something that I just can not accept and my belief in God keeps me sane and alive. If I did not believe in God I would have killed myself because for some reason I would rather experience death than extreme pain.
So now the next question would be is God really good? Now as a Christian, that is one of the hardest questions for me to answer because of the existence of evil in this world. If God is really good then why does he let all of this suffering in this world? Why does God allow there to be natural disasters in this world that kill millions? How can God allow there to be evil people like Hitler in this world to take power of countries and commit mass murders and make life miserable for the rest of humanity? If God is good then how can life on this planet be so bad? Well to be honest, just about the only thing that I can say to that is that I have faith that God is good. There is noting I can really show to prove that God it good but it would seem that if God was evil then why is there any good things in this world. Why wouldn’t a bad god just have anything but torture in this world? However that still doesn’t answer that God may just not care about what happens to us in this world.If you’re going to make a good sword though then you have to heat it up and beat it into shape in order to make it into that sword you need.Thus all I can really offer is my faith that God is good and that all of the evil things that happen it this world is there in order to prepare us for that challenges of the future and to make us into the human beings necessary to carry out God’s will.
Now the obvious next question is why Christianity? Aren’t all the religions the same? Don’t they all just tell you to be a good person and to follow all of their religious rituals? There is one thing that all of the other religions of the world do not have that Christianity does have and that is simply put in one word: Grace. Any of you out there who read this blog really know that I have great respect for Dennis Prager and I think that he is one of the most brilliant minds that we have in this world today, However in one of his shows He said “I am for earning God’s love.” But how can I do that? Do you really think that trying to be a good person, giving to the less fortunate and trying to spread you religion I going to save you? For every time that I resist the temptation of the flesh there are twenty times more that I have given it to it. I have cheated, lied, stolen and hurt people in many terrible ways. I am a sinner! How can I earn the love of God? However in Christianity I do not have to earn God’s love. That’s right, all I have to do is ask God to forgive me of my sins and take control of my life and I in! Why? Well that is because Jesus already paid the price for my sins by coming to earth and dieing for my sins. Imagine that, the almighty, all powerful God came here to earth, walked among us and suffered along us and died for my sins! It is unimaginable the love that God must have for me to do such a thing. However he did not stay dead he rose from the dead for me. Now all I have to do is Welcome Jesus into my heart and all of my sins are forgiven. Do you know how liberating that is! So now I know why I chose to become a Christian. It is because Jesus was so selfless as to come to earth and suffer far worse than I ever will, all to free me.
Does that mean that if you accept Jesus then all of the problems in you life will just be solved over night? Actually no, it will most likely make you life even harder. Like I said before you have to heat up and hit a sword in order to make it into the weapon that you need that that is the same thing that Jesus will do for you when he takes over your life. However he has a wonderful plan for everyone out their and wants to make it become a reality in your life if you will only let him. However in order to do that you’re going to have to let go of all your fears and let him take command of your life. This includes your fear of death and suffering. It is not an easy thing to do but the rewards will greatly outweigh the suffering in this life. There is only one thing that I fear and that is the one who decide what the fate of my soul after I die. The funny thing is that for some reason I never really feared death. One of the few dreams that I remember was very interesting and despite me only having been around 10 or 12 at the time I have never forgotten it. This dream was a futuristic one on an alien planet that we’ve just colonized. I don’t remember much of the details of the dream but what I do remember vividly it that that colony was in danger from something and at the end of it all I sacrificed myself in order to save everyone. Even at that early age I woke up thinking that the dream was strange but I though that it was a great dream. I was not scared during the dream or even after I woke up. This is something that I never told anyone about except for two people but for some reason I think that it is time that I told people about it because death is something that we are not to fear. Now I do not want to die, at least not yet. However on that glorious day that I die I will know that I have finished my race, finish my fight and on that day that I see my makers face, I will have my victory in Jesus.